Feeling good!

This weeks weight update is: 169. That means I'm down 2 lbs since last week and 14 lbs over all. I'm really happy! My clothes are getting looser. I need to buy a belt soon or else risk showing the world my (mostly not-so-attractive) underpants. Or I could just buy prettier underpants.

The Victoza that the Dr prescribed me really did help a lot with my appetite. Unfortunately, my insurance isn't going to cover it enough to make it affordable for me. The Dr has changed my prescription to Byetta, which should be pretty similar in its effect on my blood sugar and appetite. I just started it yesterday, so I'm interested to see how it goes. The big downer with this medication is that it's a twice-daily injection. That's twice as many injections as the last medicine. Blurgh. Oh, well.

I've been doing well with the exercising thing. I've gotten at least 2 workouts in during the last week. I was a bit thrown off by the guys (hubs and son) having a 3-day weekend. I need to just keep repeating my new mantra: "NO EXCUSES". So, I didn't get in 3 workouts like I'm aiming for. Try harder next week. My diet has been decent, as well. Lots of fruit this week! And I am not finding the low-carb thing as painful as I thought I would. There's always room for improvement, but I'm feeling pretty good about what I've done so far. Most importantly, my blood glucose level has stayed consistently low.

And although I'm trying to not focus so much on the appearance-related aspect, it has been nice. I feel lighter. I like the way I look more than I did a month ago. I'm feeling more confident. I have a little more energy. I'm even standing up straighter. As much as I hate to admit it, the changes in my appearance are the biggest motivator for me. I want to see more! I want to look better! I want to feel pretty!

In fiber-related news, I finished the pink baby hat, added three heart-shaped appliques, and gave it away to some very appreciative new parents. I can't show what I'm working on now because it's a gift, but here's the finished baby hat:

New Stuff- feeling hopeful

I forgot to write about my appointment with my cardiologist. It was over a week ago. Ooops! Basically, he was happy that I'm making so many changes. He told me that I no longer need to take 81mg of aspirin per day. I also only need to see him once a year now, rather than once every six months. I know it isn't much, but I felt good having a little hopeful medical news.

This week I went to a healthcare office that is a branch of Diabetes America. I began the visit by talking to an educator/nutritionist. She was very kind and informative. She gave me lots of good guidelines for choosing foods, as well as the permission to not always be perfect. I asked her tons of questions and she answered them all. I was really grateful to finally have someone who could give me some sense of peace about food. It's not easy feeling like food is your enemy. She also gave me a new blood sugar meter. The one I had was fine, but this new one is a brand preferred by my insurance co., which will allow me to get my test strips for much cheaper. I can't express how much of a relief that is for me. I only wish that my primary care physician would have told me that such a thing was possible. The new meter also plugs into any USB port to download my readings to my computer and generate charts and graphs and things

After that, I went to speak with one of the doctors on staff there. He looked at the results of my blood tests from last month and gave me a much clearer picture of my health issues. He explained different medications to me, as well. It turns out that the blood sugar medicine I was prescribed in January by my PCP is in a class of drugs that can actually cause people to gain weight. No good for someone who is trying to get out of the obese range. Then he told me about a different type of medicine that lowers blood sugar but has also been found to help people lose weight. It essentially slows the food you eat on it's way to your stomach. This results in a much smaller appetite. Of course I was intrigued! The downside is that it is taken by once-daily injections. Ugh. But I decided to give it a try anyway. I just need to keep reminding myself that I do things that scare me all the time. I am strong enough. The first three days that I was on the medicine, I was really nauseous. That has improved greatly yesterday and today, thank goodness. Overall, I'm hopeful that this medicine will help me stay on track with my weight loss and dietary goals.

I've done pretty good with the exercising this week. I made it through two workouts, with the hope that I can do another this weekend. I really need to get at least three in per week so I can work up to even more. I want to be strong. I want to have endurance. I don't want anyone to have to slow down for me.

I almost forgot a weight update! I'm down to 171 lbs. That means about 12 lbs. lost. I'm happy.

Set back-ish

I haven't had a change in weight this week, which I'm going to count as a positive, since I've had a few set-backs this week.

First off, there was Super Bowl. Which meant snacking more than I should on things that weren't the best for me. I was aware of what I was eating the whole time, though, and I know that I did way less damage to those bowls of chips than I would have done normally. I made jalapenos stuffed with cream cheese and wrapped in bacon, so at least there weren't any carbs or sugar in those! They were really good and a hit with the other people at the party, too.

Second, on Wednesday, I went to hang out with my friend, H. She's a busy lady between her job as a veterinarian and running marathons, so when she has time to hang out with me on a day off, I jump at the chance! As much fun as it was to hang out with her, I also came across a bit of temptation at the mall we shopped at. There was a little shop selling crepes. I almost never have the opportunity to have a nice, fresh crepe, so I gave in and indulged in one covered in Nutella and sprinkled with banana slices. It was heaven, even though I felt a little guilty.

Third, I haven't been feeling well, so I haven't exercised nearly as much. Due to medication changes, I've been nauseous every day. I've also been struggling with headaches for the past week or so. I have had chronic headaches since I was in my teens, but usually they are somewhat manageable. More often than not lately, I can get rid of the headaches with a little caffeine. That's not been the case this week, though, and usually that means that I need a new pillow. Blah, I hate pillow shopping. Anyhow, I have seen enough of a change in myself already that I want to continue making progress, so hopefully I can make some adjustments in my routine. I usually feel fine in the morning, so I guess I just need to be sure that I exercise early in the day.

All of this is to say that I had an "off" week. I need to stop the cycle that's happened before when I've made attempts to get into shape, wherein I falter for a day or two or a week and then I beat myself up about it until I give up. I really am hard on myself a lot. I can give me a guilt trip from here to the moon and back. But that's not constructive. One day doesn't define me. Neither does one week. I need to adjust my attitude, adjust my schedule, and move on.

Because my blog address is "leilaniknits", my mom suggested I show what I'm currently working on during my weekly posts. This is a sweet baby hat that I just finished. It will be heading soon to my cousin, A, to use as a photo prop. She's a great photographer and takes a lot of newborn pics.

And this doesn't look like much, but it's the beginning of a crocheted baby hat for my across-the-street neighbors who just had a baby girl earlier this week. They are really nice and I'm hoping for some baby cuddle time, so this is sort of a bribe. 

Check up

I have ideas for longer blog posts, but I haven't taken the time to write them. I feel the need to at least check in and record my weight, which I checked on Wednesday. I'm at 173lbs. now, which means I've officially lost 10lbs. now. I'm pretty happy about the small changes I'm seeing already. I can tell that my stomach is smaller. It may be my imagination, but I feel like my face looks thinner. I know that I need to work harder at the working out, but I also know that I have to work up to it, so I don't hurt myself. At this point, I'm doing 30-45 minutes of cardio 3 times a week. I really want to work up to 5 or 6 days a week. I really do enjoy working out and look forward to it. This week has been extra challenging, though, because some of my medication has made me nauseous the last few days. I'll be glad when it ends and I can get back to feeling "normal".